Life keeps changing...

Sometimes, I wish life would just stop and stand still once in a while.  Like I don't have enough to deal with, now I'm moving to Montana, Martha dumped me because I'm moving, and I'm moving because I can't get a job up here because it's too overcrowded.  Upon thinking of it, it's funny how we're getting more and more crowded and running out of space.  What happened to nature's checks and balances.  Well, after thinking that one question through, I saw it.  Every species has a preditor to keep them in balance and when you reach the top, those creatures are their own preditors.  Humans say we are different from animals when the fact is we are not.  We too fight for power, killing mercilessly to reach the top.  Unlike other animals fighting for top dog though, we fight massive wars.  Only one other creature on Earth does that and those are ants.  Small they may be, but their only preditor lives in one area while they live all over.  When's the last time you walked outside and saw a wild Anteater?  I have yet to even see one except in some cartoons.  But we're still crowded, although we fight and die in wars all over, it worked years ago, but what about now?  Now we have STD's.  Nature couldn't keep our population down, so it brought out AIDS, no cure and it not only passes to the partner, but to the kid, effectively forming an end for a family line.

Humans who couldn't control themselves although claim to be different from animals once again fall at the hands of nature, God, or whatever deity exists on Earth with the supreme power.  I just hope we realize we need to stop this soon before whoever is in charge decides enough is enough and wipes out the human race altogether.

Happy Birthday to me!

I'm sooooo in love ^_^

Last night, Martha came over.  We took the kids out Trick or Treating, then had pizza after.  It was a fun night.  I love her so much, I didn't even care that my legs felt like they were going to fall off.  It was also the first time I got to see her without her braces.  I've been hunting for a job so I can take her out on dates.  Currently working at getting a job with Dunkin Donuts who is opening down the street.  If they turn me down, I may be completely out of luck.  I mean, if THEY aren't desperate enough to hire me, who will be?  Someone has to hire me eventually, but with no job experience and 20 years old (almost 21), everyone thinks I'm a slacker.  Which isn't true, I am fun to hang out with, but how can I possibly get a chance if nobody wants to give me the chance.  I'm a hard worker, everyone, even Martha, knows that.  When I'm in working mode, business comes before pleasure.  With no other outlet for that energy, I've been running my own clan for a few months.  Things are working out with that, but I can't put that on my resume, you know?  So I'm hoping the DD is just soooo desperate, they'll hire me.  But I'm not getting my hopes up, I got the last application, meaning I know I'm not the only one who applied for there.  Things may not turn out how I want them, and I may end up moving away with my family, which I don't want to do.  This job may be my last hope at staying here with Martha, and I can't just give up.  Well, enough chewing your eyes out, whoever is foolish enough to read the writings of an insane man on an insane mission for a sane woman he loves.

PS:  Your computer will selfdestruct in 5....

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Ok, fine, my selfdestruct computer virus doesn't work, are ya happy now?  My dream of blowing up computers is down the toilet.  If you need me, I'll be in the sewers looking for a new dream to play with.

Our Anniversary

Things are going ok for me, not the best, but better than they used to.  I'm not pressured so much by Martha like I was before, and I'm much happier.  With Meg under pressure, I tried 1 place at a time every 2-3 months.  Now I've actually got something to work for.  I've applied at many places (and been turned down by just as many), but there is a Dunkin Donuts opening up down the street.  I've picked up my application already and I'll be filling it out after my neighbor gets a copy because she wants to work there too.  Anyways, there is another DD accepting applications for both places further down the street.  A job at either one will be fine, but first paycheck, I'm gonna buy a bike for easier travel.  Mine and Martha's 5 month anniversary is coming up.  6 more days.  I was hoping to have a job by now to take her out to a nice place, but it hasn't happened yet.  Although, I may be able to do next month's anniversary.  It's hard to believe it's really been 5 month's.  It went by so fast.  She's gotta be the best thing that's ever happened to me since sliced bread.  Hell, she IS the better than the best thing since sliced bread.  What's with that saying anyways?  What's so great about sliced bread?  Well, I'm changing it.  She's the best thing since I discovered video games (now that has more meaning).  Her dad's extremely over protective though.  It's like other guys have dated her and hurt her, but I would never do that and he won't let her come over very much.  5 months and only one date.  And now, he won't let her go trick-or-treating with me and my brother.  But her sister is able to go to a friends party.  This is as bad as my first ex-gf's parents.  Except I can't see what excuse her dad has.  Either he doesn't care about the sister or he just wants to be an asshole (sorry) to Martha.  We're gonna keep trying to persuade him throughout the month because I really want her to come trick-or-treating with us.  I just don't feel happy about it without her because I want to do a couple costume (we're thinking Howl and Sophie from "Howls Moving Castle") and it's got no meaning if I'm alone.  Anyways, I'm ranting, so let's see if I can get more on a positive note.  My brother is home and he brought back the PS2 (YAY!).  But the memory card broke and he lost a controller, so we had to buy a new one of both.  Now we're working on the games to re-unlock everthing.  Martha has my memory card and a couple of games, so there are some files that are fine.  So, who's bored and wants me to shut up now?  Anyone?  *crickets chirping*  Hello?  *crickets leave*  Ok, I guess I'll just be on my way.  Farewell to you all and to all a good morning/day/noon/afternoon/evening/night/midnight.